hocus pocus bee em double yoos

.. A week without certain job to do; you bet it sucked! ..

Gastritis and headache attacked me, and made me feel lonely and depressed. Ah..!

I practically forget (read: stop expecting too much) the new job; Forgetting the MCU result.

Although, I’m trying not to forget to pray, I sometimes missed the pray time. But I believe that God gives the best for me.

And the most disturbing thing is usually at this kind of circumstances the best thing to do is having sex, but, I can’t, I may not. I’m trying to find the other way to heal instead of having sex.

SPENDING MONEY!

Yes it always works. But, it can’t be the best way now, not during this crisis! Well, I have to admit that is a little bit relief for me knowing that now I’m not the only one who having this crisis.

And it’s not only about the crisis, but I had figured out that I’m not the only one who feel like stranger in my own house (my parent’s), and I’m not the only one who afraid of losing the ones I love, and certainly not the only one who have problems in showing how much I care to those persons I love.

I’M NOT THE ONLY ONE! YOU HEAR ME!! YES! *jump*

….. *thinking of what to do next…..

I have a list:

1. 1. Get this new job (PRAYING).

2. 2. Taking the Elisa test.

3. 3. Looking for GF.

4. … Before I find the GF who I’m looking for; making love with the man I really like!

So much for the list, isn’t it? :-D, I even not sure whether I can do it.

And even so, I still have more “gay friends” list in my YM list than my “to do” list. *another meaningless statement*

G O D, I don’t even know what to write anymore. This keyboard has stopped inspiring me, no more rhythm circulated from my fingers.