another coca cola relationship

.. love ends in many different ways ..

and for me; it always exactly in different ways, complicated causes, various situations.

Well, I never expect that this one would end. After all who doesn't want to be happy anyway. And I believe that I have proper sanity to think the same way. I want to be happy.

So who's gonna get the blame?

NO ONE!

I know this is not me, not them, not anyone.. who causing this “freaking-stinky-loneliness” But the worse is I'm starting to believe that maybe this is part of my destiny.. The path that I must go through..

Oh Heaven help ME!

Even a tattoo on my upper hips can't help it. That two hours of misery just not worth it anymore!

I want a man.. Not a boy who thinks he can.. * yes I steal this line from spice girls..*

Well, of course I love him, I care about him.... But I just can't feel it anymore? Is it the because of my age? Hey Hello!! I'm still in my twenties.. how can this happen? How can my so-called logical sense dominating the delusional sense part. Where did the so-called “butterfly in my stomach, love vibration” go?? WHERE??

ah. life...

I want a baskin robbins kind of relationship, not a coca cola...

I want to have it for myself, lick it to the last drop and no one can feel what I feel..

Not the kind of switchable, common-tasted relationship.

ah. life...

the funniest thing of all is when I'm not expecting anything from someone, he just give me way too much than I need..


I wander through fiction
To look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
I stood at a distance to feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

Hold on before it’s too late
Or until we leave this behind
Don’t fall just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

Now the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you don’t live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it’s gone

Hold on before it’s too late
Or until we leave this behind
Don’t fall just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
And love til you feel it
It’s all that we need in our lives
Stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
nothing is real til its gone

Hold on before it’s too late
Or until we leave this behind
Don’t fall just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

It’s all that I need in my life

- Before It's Too Late, Goo Goo Dolls -