What you get on 80 km/h

And I’m wondering…

Something other people can do while I can’t.

Caught in this twisted-metropolis-life makes me realized that I should catch up. I should stay in the track and move fast. Never give a chance for other to kick me off of the track. But I didn’t realize that the faster I move the bigger chance for other to kick me out! But then I start to think, why should I care??! Or should I?

And the next thing to think is why other people would like to kick me out? Is it me who has becoming a paranoid?

Well, maybe it is! The long-term single life and non-fancy-job gets to freak me out!

Until this morning, when I was driving my old BMW on the highway; I got frustrated! The speed couldn’t get even more than 80km/h, imagining how the heading traffic jam could be; I had a stomachache!

And to get cure from this pain in the stomach, I know that I have to relax. And I was trying to enjoy the trip by looking at the green grass aside and beautiful clouds over. And that time I knew that is not so bad to drive slowly, it was great indeed! I never notice before that the green grass and the light that glitters over the dust in the air could be very beautiful, not to mention the gradation of light spectrums which made between the clouds.

And then I was thinking, what would happened if I moved slower through my life. Would it be better? Or even get worse?

And that was it!! When I could get nothing when I move like a flash in the night (hihi, just another lousy hyperbole!), I should have a chance to get something when I move slowly. At least I would notice what happens around me. At least I would notice what’s wrong with me that make me so hard to find love (Yet, I still believe in love).

And so I’ve decided for next year resolution; GO SLOW.

It means that I have to take everything easy, and stay on the track. And still, I will make a double standard on any aspects in my life, including when I’m looking for my lusty-love partner.

He must be a nice-cute-adorable-huggable-kissable-.. ermm suckable hottie! Yummy; Yes Mommy I want him!! I want him!!!

Bye-bye 2007! So long my lovers……

[Verse 1]

I Wake up with blood-shot eyes.
Struggled to memorize.
The way it felt between your thighs.
Pleasure that made you cry.
Feels so good to be bad.
Not worth the aftermath, after that,
After that.
Try to get you back.

[Bridge 1]

I still don't have the reason.
And you don't have the time.
And it really makes me wonder,
If I ever gave a fuck about you

[Chorus 1]

Give me something to believe in,
Because I don't believe in you anymore,
Anymore.
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try.
(Yeah)
So this is goodbye.

[Verse 2]

God damn my spinning head.
Decisions that made my bed.
Now I must lay in it.
And deal with things I've left unsaid.
I want to dive into you.
Forget what you're going through.
I get behind, and make your move.
Forget about the truth.

[Bridge 2]

I still don't have a reason.
And you don't have the time.
And it really makes me wonder,
If I ever gave a fuck about you.

[Chorus 2]

Give me something to believe in.
Because I don't believe in you anymore,
Anymore.
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try. (yeah)
And you told me how you're feelin',
But I don't believe it's true anymore,
Anymore.
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry.
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye.

[Verse 3]

I've been here before.
One day I'll wake up,
And it won't hurt anymore,
You caught me in a lie,
I have no alibi,
The words you said don't have a meaning,
because..

[Bridge 3]

I still don't have a reason.
And you don't have the time.
And it really makes me wonder,
If I ever gave a fuck about you and I..
And so this is goodbye.

[Chorus 3]

Give me something to believe in.
Because I don't believe in you anymore,
Anymore.
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try.
And you told me how you're feelin',
But I don't believe it's true anymore,
Anymore.
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry.
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye, (oh no)
So this is goodbye, (oh no)
(yeah)
So this is goodbye, (oh no)
(yeah)

So this is goodbye.

- Makes Me wonder, Maroon 5 -