crushed on the star

I never thought that I could finally successful dealing with this kind of situation.

I know that I could never deny that I really want him. His lips, his eyes, his face, his perfect body shape, his everything are so perfect for me. In other side, I just know that I may not in love with him and let this physical attraction remains on its purpose.

Too many things to be learnt from my previous so called broken-hearted-twisted-up-experiences, and when I said that I’ll make a double standard; I mean it! I don’t wanna be fooled anymore! Enough is enough!

I wouldn’t say that he’s like an angel sent from heaven, though I think he might be.

I wouldn’t think that he’d like me, though there is a little desire kept in my heart.

I wouldn’t open my heart for him, though he opens it a little by little.

I wouldn’t and I would never be fooled again! Even though any living creatures in this universe would know that I’m lying to myself. They know how much I will care for him. They know exactly that in time I’ll fall and get ruined again.

I only wish that he know this, he know how much fragile I could be, so he wouldn’t make me fly and then throw me to the same hole just like any other guys in my life before.

Watch my life pass me by
in the review mirror
Pictures frozen in time
are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day stuck in the
shadow of my mistakes
yeah

'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin,
like a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What's left of me

I've been dying inside
Little by little
Nowhere to go
But goin' out of my mind
In endless circles
runnin' from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still

And I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What's left of me

Falling faster
Barely breathing
Give me something to believe in
Tell me it's not all in my head

Take what's left of this man
Make me whole once again

'cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
like a hunger
like a burning
to find the place I've never been
now I'm broken
and I'm fading
I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have
All that's left
Yeah, yeah, yeah
What's left of me

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just runnin' in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Of me
Just runnin' in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me
Take what's left of me

- What's Left Of Me, Nick Lachey -