boghyahs

The power of positive thinking.

“BASI!”, I said to myself, when it was arrived in my inbox.

Though, I couldn’t stop my curiosity to open the email. And just as I thought, it was just another philosophy-soups-or-whatever-you-name-it email which was expected to give enlighten to other people.

*sigh*
Aren’t there any emails that can give me any clue to solve my financial problem?
No, I don’t believe that it can’t be solved by only using my positive thinking.

Lately my mood keeps falling down to the south; and I just don’t have any motivation anymore to go through the day.

Until this morning; when I was driving alone in the dark of dawn, suddenly the email popped up in my idled-brain. And somehow, just like hypnotize, it force me to make the list of good and bad things that ever happened in my life. And I started with the bad ones;

BAD THINGS;

1. The never-ending family drama.
2. Being gay.
3. The never-ending debts.
4. ….
5. ….
6. ….
7. ???????????????

And after I couldn’t think of any more bad things, I continue with the good ones;

GOOD THINGS;

1. I have a quite promising working experience.
2. I have a car.
3. My body part is still in a perfect order and complete.
4. I have a home.
5. I love my room.
6. I have a family.
7. I have a boyfriend.
8. I still can play billiard in a low cost at bengkel np.
9. And the last but will never be the least; I have best friends, I have Boghnyahs.

And I couldn’t stop smiling thinking the 4 last points. Yet, it makes me one of the fortunate boys in the world; I have someone to love me.


You could say I lost my faith in science and progress
You could say I lost my belief in the holy church
You could say I lost my sense of direction
You could say all of this and worse, but
If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do

Some would say I was a lost man in a lost world
You could say I lost my faith in the people on T.V.
You could say I'd lost my belief in our politicians
They all seemed like game show hosts to me
If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do
I could be lost inside their lies without a trace
But every time I close my eyes, I see your face

I never saw no miracle of science
That didn't go from a blessing to a curse
I never saw no military solution
That didn't always end up as something worse,
But let me say this first

If I ever lose my faith in you
If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do
There'd be nothing left for me to do
If I ever lose my faith
If I ever lose my faith
If I ever lose my faithIf I ever lose my faith in you

- Sting, If I Ever Lose My Faith In You -