peaceful warriors

06.30 pm

I don’t know whether it has pulled me back into fantasy or pushed me into reality. And I don’t really care, because it was and always will inspiring me.

Now I know; It’s not about the destination, but it’s about the journey. It’s the journey that can makes us happy.

It’s not the goals, but it’s the way you make the goals.

And it’s not about being straight, but it’s about how I can make myself living as straight! I shouldn’t be worried of whether I could make it or not, I shouldn’t be worried if I fail over and over again. Because I know I’ll make it, I know that I’ll be happy. And I know I’ll know how. And I know that being straight is not an option. It’s a must.

People always say that life is about options. We can choose our own option and be responsible for whatever we have chosen. And when it comes about straight or gay, it’s like I have to choose between going to live on purposes or to live on a purpose.

And now I must be focus on what I should do. I must let go all of my past, life is a mystery and always will, so I shouldn’t waste my time to find the answers for everything. I shouldn’t waste my time to find the answers, because there is nothing remains the same.


Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye

- I love You Goodbye, Celine Dion -

“The hardest person to love is the one who I needed the most…”

In fact, that is what has happening right now. I always stand beside the one who I needed the most. She’s the one who will always stands beside me.