waiting to falling in love again

Seminggu menuju bali.

Gue lagi berusaha supaya tidak ada local drama yang bisa menghambat kepergian gue atau merusak kesenangan gue di sana. Pokoknya gue akan lupa diri saat liburan nanti. Bebas sebebas-bebasnya.

Hari ini gue tersenyum saat dia mereply message Friendster gue. Well, gue sendiri kenal dia dari teman gue, jadi tidak ada ekspetasi yang berlebihan, kecuali gue bersemangat memang karena dia manis. Dan lagi bisa membantu gue untuk perlahan menurunkan ekspektasi gue terhadap si front desk straight itu, atau yang sekarang dikenal dengan sebutan si meneketehe ;p.

Duh! Ingin merasakan jatuh cinta lagi nih, apalagi setelah tadi malam sepintas menyaksikan film No Regret, sebuah gaylove story versi korea. Outlinenya cukup menarik, tentang pria yang berjuang mendapatkan pria pujaannya, dan setelah dia berhasil meluluhkan hati si pria itu, dia malah dipaksa menikahi wanita oleh ibunya. Belum lihat gimana akhirnya, tapi yang pasti bakal seru dan sedih.

Gue hanya ingin merasakan perasaan itu lagi, di saat gue bisa tersenyum-senyum sendiri mendengarkan lagu-lagu romantis, di saat gue merasa ada yang harus dan pantas diperjuangkan.


Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so sad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever,have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so sad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever,have you ever
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day
when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so sad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever,have you ever
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

Have you ever?


-Have You Ever, Brandy-