keep on buzzing

Pukul 16.00, dan gue mengalami sakit kepala yang lumayan mengganggu. Sahabat gue sudah memutuskan untuk tidak ke gym karena akan diapeli oleh pacarnya. Gue pun memutuskan untuk membatalkan rencana gym gue, membayangkan betapa menyenangkan kalau gue bisa tidur lebih awal malam ini.

16.30 gue turun ke parkiran, dan kemudian menelpon teman gym gue dan mengabari ke dia kalau gue malas latihan. Tapi, kemudian lagu itu berputar di mobil, dan langsung mengingatkan gue akan pria kecengan gue yang sudah sejak lama gue perhatikan. Bukan si meneketehe yang selalu gue ceritakan pada teman-teman gue, tapi dia yang selalu secara tidak sengaja berpapasan dengan gue, dan kemudian membuat kita berdua saling memandang sesaat. Dan sore itu gue memutuskan; gue harus berkenalan dengannya, tonight or never.

Macet sempat bikin bete, tapi gue berhasil sampai di plaza semanggi dengan waktu kurang dari satu jam. Setelah parker dan mengobrol beberapa menit via telpon dengan teman kantor, gue langsung beranjak menuju lift sambil mengetik sms untuk teman kantor gue yang lainnya. Dan saat pintu lift akan menutup, tiba-tiba ada yang berlari mengejar lift yang gue gunakan sendiri itu, spontan gue tahan pintunya supaya tidak menutup, dan ternyata orang itu adalah dia!

“Thanks”, ujarnya sambil tersenyum ke gue.

Dan seperti gue bilang, kalau gue mengalami long-term stupidity, gue langsung mati gaya dalam seketika. Gue hanya mampu menutup handphone, dan berpikir keras tentang kata-kata apa yang paling bagus untuk mulai berkenalan dengan dia. Tapi telat, pintu lift keburu terbuka, dan akhirnya kita keluar dan berjalan ke arah yang berbeda karena gue memutuskan untuk membeli makanan kecil sebagai pengganjal perut.

Sekali lagi gue gagal, saat Tuhan sudah memberikan kesempatan pada, dan untuk keratusan kalinya, gue selalu menyianyiakan kesempatan itu. Semoga gue diberi satu kesempatan lagi, dan semoga kali ini gue dapat menggunakannya dengan baik.

Tapi di luar semua kegagalan gue itu, gue senang! Gue senang karena sensasi ini kembali muncul di diri gue, membuat gue semangat lagi.

Baby, baby, baby,
from the day I saw you,
I really, really wanted to catch your eye.
There's something special 'bout you.
I must really like you,
'cause not a lot of guys are worth my time.
Oooo Baby, baby, baby,
It's gettin' kinda crazy,
'cause you are takin' over my mind.
And it feels like
OooOoOoOoOooOooOooo...
But you don't know my name.
I swear...
It feels like
OooOoOoOoOooOooOooo...
You don't know my name.
('Round and 'round and 'round we go. Will you ever know?)
Oh! Baby, baby, baby
I see us on our first date.
You're doin' everything that makes me smile.
And when we had our first kiss,
it happened on a Thursday,
and, ooh, it set my soul on fire.
Ooh, baby, baby, baby,
I can't wait for the first time.
My imagination's runnin' wild.
It feels like
OooOoOoOoOoooooo...
You don't know my name.
And I swear it, baby,
It feels like
OooOoOoOoOooOooooo...
U don't know my name.
('Round and 'round and 'round we go. Will you ever know?)
Will you ever know?
I'm sayin'
he don't even know what he's doin' to me.
Got me feelin all crazy inside.
I'm I'm feelin like...Oh!
I'm doin' more than I've ever done
for anyone's attention.
Take notice of what's in front of you
'cause did i mention (Oh!)
you're 'bout to miss a good thing?
And you'll never know how good it feels to have
all of my affection.
And you'll never get a chance to experience
my lovin' (Oh!)
'Cause my lovin feels like...
OooOoOoOoOooOooOooo...
You don't know my name.
('Round and 'round and 'round we go. Will you ever know?)
And I swear it feels like
OooOoOoOoOooOooOooo...
You don't know my name.
('Round and 'round and 'round we go.(Oh..)Will you ever know?)
Will you ever know it?
No, no, no, no, no...no, no...
Will you ever know it?
Well I'm a have to just go ahead and call this boy.
Hello?
Can I speak to...to Michael?
Oh, hey how you doin'?
Uh, I feel kinda silly doin this but, uh,
this is the waitress from the coffee house on 39th from Lenox.
You know the one with the braids?
Yeah. Well I see you on Wedn'sdays all the time.
You come in every Wedn'sday on your lunch break, I think.
And you always order the special...with the hot chocolate.
My manager be trippin and stuff talkin 'bout we gotta use water, but...
I always use some milk and cream for you, cause...
I think you're kinda sweet. (laughs)
Anyway, you always got on some fly blue suit
and your cufflinks are shining all bright.
So what you do?

Oh word?
Yeah that's interestin'...
Look man, I mean, I don't wanna waste your time but...
I know girls don't usually do this,
but I was wonderin' if maybe we could get together
outside the restaurant one day?
You know 'cause I do look a lot different outside my work clothes and... (laughs)
I mean we could just go across the street to the park, right here...
Wait, hold up, my ph... my cell phone's breakin' up, hold up...
Can you hear me now?
Yeah. So what day did you say?
Oh yeah. Thursday's perfect, man.
And it feels like
OooOoOoOoOooOoooooo...
But you don't know my name.
('Round and 'round and 'round we go. Will you ever know?)
Baby, baby I swear...it's like
OooOoOoOoOooOooOooOoooo...
But you don't know my name. No no no-o...
('Round and 'round and 'round we go. Will you ever know?)
And it feels like

But you don't know my name.
('Round and 'round and 'round we go. Will you ever know?)
And I swear on my mother and father, it feels like
(But you don't know my name. 'Round and 'round and 'round we go.)
Will you ever know?

- Alicia Keys, You don't know my name -

--- gue selalu mendapatkan yang gue inginkan pada akhirnya, tapi kenapa kalau urusan percintaan itu selalu gagal? Atau mungkin Tuhan memang ingin gue belajar lebih banyak lagi ---