why can't I be on the other side?

I think I’m losing my best friend.

Gue sedikit parno dan juga senang. Gue senang karena akhirnya dia mau untuk mencoba dan memberanikan diri untuk bertemu dengan pria kenalannya dari Friendster. Dan gue parno karena akhirnya terjadi lagi.

Menurut sahabat gue satunya lagi, mungkin gue hanya khawatir kehilangan safety net gue. Seseorang yang selalu ada untuk gue; di saat senang dan susah. Yah, mungkin memang benar. Mungkin memang itu. Karena gue memang sulit untuk merasakan sedih, di saat dia akan menemukan kebahagiannya; semoga.

Tapi kalau menurut gue, mungkin memang karena gue sayang sama dia. Mungkin karena gue senang dia berada di sekitar gue dan gue tidak suka kalau gue harus berbagi dengan orang lain. Karena mungkin gue senang menjadi seorang yang istimewa di mata dia.

But, then again.. Gue gay, dan dia perempuan. And I just have to accept this. That we’re not meant for each other; tidak lebih dari sekedar berteman.

I've been avoiding things I'm missing
Then you came into my life a brand new flower, baby
A reminder of what happiness is like
On the other side
What can't I feel?
(I'm saying my blind side)

And if a mental picture 's all I've got, to go on
For a while or more
Girl you know I'll always think of you, think of you
Yes if a mental picture's all I've got, to go on, I know
You're a picture to remember.

Time was of the essence
And as usual the day turns into minutes
Sharing love and tenderness
That's the nerve you struck in me that sent a signal
To the other side
Girl I don't know
I'm saying my blind side.

And if a mental picture 's all I've got, to go on
For a while or more
Girl you know I'll always think of you, think of you
Yes if a mental picture's all I've got, to go on, I know
You're a picture to remember.

Take me to the other side
Why can't I feel?
Out of my blind side.

And oh if a mental picture's all I've got
All I've got to go on
For a while or more
Girl you know I'll always think of you, think of you
Yes if a mental picture's all I've got, to go on, I know
You're a picture to remember, remember.

-- Jon Secada's Mental Picture --

Gue cuma bisa mendoakan yang terbaik untuk dia. Dan gue yakin kalau doa ini benar-benar tulus dari hati gue. Good luck :)